Love of my life.
A few months ago, I came to the realization that I’m the love of my life. Sounds weird and a bit narcissistic, but hear me out.
Whilst writing my Life after Graduation post, I remembered how we’re expected to find the love of our lives in uni, just like the movies and have a romance like the Notebook, High School Musical or like Awkward before Jenna cheated on Matty Mckibben and then you live happily ever after. Yeah?! Life has a funny way of reminding you that fairytales only exist on Disney and Fox.
Instead of finding the love of my life in someone else, I found myself. I sat back and appreciated how I recovered from my setbacks, and my ability to dust myself off because life will keep on moving, even if I don’t.
Most importantly, whilst deep in thought I realised that over time I learnt to love myself more because I’m great (even when I don’t feel like I am). I’m deserving of love and I’m the only person I’m going to be with forever and then it clicked… Since I’m going to be with myself forever and I deserve love so…
I’m the love of my life.
When all is said and done, I’m going to be with myself forever so I should love myself like I am. That’s it.
I’m the only person I can depend on, whose actions I can vouch for because my actions are the only ones I can control. I’m the only person who won’t die on me or leave me.
Overtime I’ve realised that I need to put myself first because no one else will. I don’t want to live a life of regret because I would have done myself a great disservice.
I think the phrase ‘love of our life’ relates to two people – ourselves and our soulmate – whoever that may be . It makes sense to be the first love of your life though because you’ll always have yourself. Beyoncé said it best – ‘Me, Myself and I, that’s all I got in the end.’
I’m the one I should care about most, because I’m the most important person in my life. Now, me saying I’m the one I should care about most does not mean I do not care about others because I really do.
(Hence, why I made apieceofsarah.com – the blog that constantly tells it’s readers to focus and flourish and advocates chasing your dreams because why tf not.)
It just means I need to make sure I’m feeling great internally and externally, that I’m listening to my body, doing things that make me happy and aligning myself to my goals because if I’m not doing that am I really living?
You talk to people you love constantly, right?
I’m the person I talk to the most, I’m the one who knows my dreams including the ones I don’t say out loud. I know why certain things are important to me and why I value certain qualities when I find them in others. I’m the person who knows what I’m thinking when I’m quiet and when I lie by saying things are ‘fine’ when they’re not.
If I’m going to be with myself forever and self-love really is the best love, why shouldn’t I give myself this position? With all of these reasons, I came to the conclusion that I’m the love of my life because I deserve to be. If you’re ever stuck on who the love of your life is, my suggestion, is, you are.
Cheers to being the first love of our life, let’s love ourselves thoroughly and not depend on the love from third parties to sustain us. May we continue to treat ourselves well, take time to rest and recover, work towards our goals, have faith that we can actually achieve them and not let self sabotage stop us from reaching our full potentials. May we all realise that we’re going to be with ourselves forever so we might aswell love ourselves like we are.